I randomly started wondering about who made words? Why do the mean what they do? What was the first word ever created? Was is spoken or thought of first? How did we comunicate before that? How did we have thoughts before that? Does the first word still exist? Does it still have the same meaning? How could we ever truly figure out the answer? It's no like we evolved with a full vocabulary. And for that matter, how did we know how to translate from speaking animal to speaking human? What was the first communication ever? How did this all come to be? Did we just always communicate? Do we just know how with out knowing why? Hmmm... Now that i got my ponderings out..
Update on life:
So i last posted about my meds, i decided to elaborate since i was took shocked to talk last time. An SSRI should only be taken for a year, i've been taking one for 5. It should not be given to children, teens, or young adults, which means i probibly shouldn't have been put on it untill i was like 25. It was relased in 1998, not really long enough to understand long term effects. All of the side effects truely come about the longer u take it. Most of u know that i've been felling sick for a long time now, i'm constantly nauseous. Well it's a side effect. Lack of sleep, as well as drowsiness and falling asleep while driving. Hmm... Didn't i do that. Wieght loss or gain. I have put on like 50lbs in the past 5 years. Loss of appitite, i used to be able to eat alot, not so much anymore. Craving sweets, well damn thats why i've been eating alot of crap and just cant help it and when i try to ignore the cravings i binge. Memory loss, yea my memory went to shit, sometimes i cant remember my own birthday, oh and i've been misspelling my middle name. Increased thirst, very much a definate. Thoughts of suicide, yea that's been getting worse again, could it be that i've been on it too long? Depression, wai isn't it suppossed to help? Oh that's right is supposed to balance ur serotonin levels after awhlie it can't be balanced anymore because it doesn't need it anymore. Lack of concintration, yea got that one. Blurry vision, well i do feel like my vision has gotten worse, but i dont know if this med caused it. Twitching, yea i twitch but play it off because i hate it. Cant sit still. Loss of creativity, i havn't been doing the greast with my art work in a very long time and i dispise that! I'm sure there are more. This week i'm going to the doctors and asking to be taken off. I'd do it myself but i need to be monotered. So yea...
Update on life:
So i last posted about my meds, i decided to elaborate since i was took shocked to talk last time. An SSRI should only be taken for a year, i've been taking one for 5. It should not be given to children, teens, or young adults, which means i probibly shouldn't have been put on it untill i was like 25. It was relased in 1998, not really long enough to understand long term effects. All of the side effects truely come about the longer u take it. Most of u know that i've been felling sick for a long time now, i'm constantly nauseous. Well it's a side effect. Lack of sleep, as well as drowsiness and falling asleep while driving. Hmm... Didn't i do that. Wieght loss or gain. I have put on like 50lbs in the past 5 years. Loss of appitite, i used to be able to eat alot, not so much anymore. Craving sweets, well damn thats why i've been eating alot of crap and just cant help it and when i try to ignore the cravings i binge. Memory loss, yea my memory went to shit, sometimes i cant remember my own birthday, oh and i've been misspelling my middle name. Increased thirst, very much a definate. Thoughts of suicide, yea that's been getting worse again, could it be that i've been on it too long? Depression, wai isn't it suppossed to help? Oh that's right is supposed to balance ur serotonin levels after awhlie it can't be balanced anymore because it doesn't need it anymore. Lack of concintration, yea got that one. Blurry vision, well i do feel like my vision has gotten worse, but i dont know if this med caused it. Twitching, yea i twitch but play it off because i hate it. Cant sit still. Loss of creativity, i havn't been doing the greast with my art work in a very long time and i dispise that! I'm sure there are more. This week i'm going to the doctors and asking to be taken off. I'd do it myself but i need to be monotered. So yea...
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