peaches101

i want it so bad i'm ok with death

my throat constantly feels like it's cut up and bleeding, my teeth are always in pain, my stomach has been upset, i've been getting frequent headaches, i'm always tired, and always sad....al because on my bulimia but i want it so bad i dont care if i die, it scares me. i almost lost chris because of it and everyday i have to stop myself just so i dont loose him.. its so hard it'd just be easier to let it happen n die but i love him too much. somedays i feel like purging till my organs come out but i cant, i have to get better, i'm not sure though if i want to for me.

i hate myself....