peaches101

wow so yea i haven't been on here in awhile - i've been mentally going thru alot again - my depression is trying to come back n its kind of winning - the sentancing of my uncle was supposed to be the 2nd and then the 9th n now the 20th - i think i may have posted that already tho - but for once they gave me a reason for the cancellation - his attorney is on vacation - fucker he doesn't even like my uncle he's just defended him for the money - i just want it to be over - i've been having nightmares every night - 4 cancellations its too much - i mean the trial was in september it doesn't take 6 months to sentance a person - i've been wanting to esacpe especially to the beach but every nice day we've been busy - i need to escape - my boyfriend is gonna take me out all day 2marrow we dont kno where yet considering it snowed this morning - i was hopeing it'd be nice again n we could go to the beach but we cant - fucking snow - it weird the sun especially in the summer feeds off mass amounts of vitamin d which helps kill depression, but its only good going in thru the skin so milk doesn't make a difference - finding that out i relised how happy i was over the summer espically b4 my friend chopped my hair, it was all heathly n for once passed my shoulders but she chopped it up to my chin n its been horrible ever since - i dunno what she did but all i've been getting is splits so prbibly this weekend i'm getting a strengthening shampoo to help - i kno my dying my hair that one time didn't help much considering it was under 6 months since i previously dyed it - i'm very temoted to give myself a pixie cut b/c then my hair would be at my natural color n at its heathiest but its bad enough my hair is as short as it is n i've been dying to grow it out to aleast the middle of my back if not longer - uhhh, my hair it helpping my depresseion as well if that makes any sense - but aleast i've been doing art everyday n went to job interveiws this week so i'm just hopeing to get something good - so yea i think i'm doing sorry for the rants i've just had alot on my mind - i'm reapplying to sg again next month so cross ur fingers....