Hello Gorgeous SG!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feeling INCREDIBLE TODAY! Ok ok... i will admit... i gave into the pills again, they have my blood pumping and have me all hyped up! I have this amazing adrenalin rush going on right now that it feels great!
However, i just remembered why i got off of them in the first place, it brings up my blood pressure and my family has a history of hypertension, so when it hits me i feel all wierd and lightheaded and short of breath etc. When i am not on the pills i get depressed. Which is a normal side effect though. It brings me so low. Poeple begin to have psychological side effects the worst is suffering from paranoia or... damn i forgot the term... and i was a psychology major LOL.... well, you begin to see and hear things, schizophrenia! there we go, and OCD. But i haven't gone through that so i'm good.
The part i hate the most about these pills are that when i'm not on them i get immensly depressed. You guys have read my blogs. I hit rock bottom. Not good for me or those arounds me. It also keeps me from getting a good work out because my blood is already pumping so fast and my blood pressure is so high that my work outs have to be short and sweet. But not enough. AND... it causes insomnia so i'm always waking up at 4:00 am and ready to go jogging. Not cool either.
But i had to give it. I just had to. I'm almost done though. I hope this does not become an addiction... that's if it hasn't already become one.
What i love about them is that i feel energized. I'm soooo ready for the day. I eat less which helps my anxiety cuz all i eat is candy anyway and helps me focus on the healthy foods like actual meals and not chocolate as a meal.
It motivates me to work out regardless of my schedule. Usually i'm so exhausted at the end of the day and just want to sleep.
I'm quick and allert.
I can get agressive though. Also not good. Can make me moody or cranky... but with the adrenalin rush i'm in cloud 9
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THe REALLY bad part of these pills are that they are similar to Amphetamine. VERY similar if not the same but in a medical form.
I was supposed to have finished the dosage and made it my last but i forgot how bad i began to feel with them so i stopped half way and i stopped immediately which i shouldn't have done. I should have slowly removed myself from them to avoid any sort of psychological effects such as depression, suicidal thoughts or tendancies, etc. Which i did experience.
I'm just going to take advatage of this and do everything i have to do while i still have the energy because i'm stuck in a situation in which time is ticking and i NEED to do something about my financial situation.
My bro is also worring me. He has been missing football practice because he claims he's not feeling well which in a way i believe because we have been ill for a while. But i feel like it may be something else. I feel like something else is bothering him but he won't open up.
I try to talk to him and try to get him to trust me but it doesn't work. Any advice?
I took him to Knotts with us and offered to buy him anything he wanted but i guess he didn't want to. I always take him wherever i go so he can feel wanted. But he always refuses and wants to stay home and play video games, watch TV or be on the computer all day.
I feel like he feels lonely but i don't know what else to do. He is isolating himself from the family and even freinds.
My parents are doing great right now. They miss us so much as we do with them. My dad seems better as well.
My sis really needs a job but we can't seem to find her a permanent job especially something that would offer full time.
I need to get on this and i need to get on it now because life moves on. I can't sit and watch from the side while everyone around me is being affected.
I hope to come up with solutions soon.
Thanx for listening guys! and thanx for all your advice!
Ciao!
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!
xoxoxo!!!!!
Peaches
Feeling INCREDIBLE TODAY! Ok ok... i will admit... i gave into the pills again, they have my blood pumping and have me all hyped up! I have this amazing adrenalin rush going on right now that it feels great!
However, i just remembered why i got off of them in the first place, it brings up my blood pressure and my family has a history of hypertension, so when it hits me i feel all wierd and lightheaded and short of breath etc. When i am not on the pills i get depressed. Which is a normal side effect though. It brings me so low. Poeple begin to have psychological side effects the worst is suffering from paranoia or... damn i forgot the term... and i was a psychology major LOL.... well, you begin to see and hear things, schizophrenia! there we go, and OCD. But i haven't gone through that so i'm good.
The part i hate the most about these pills are that when i'm not on them i get immensly depressed. You guys have read my blogs. I hit rock bottom. Not good for me or those arounds me. It also keeps me from getting a good work out because my blood is already pumping so fast and my blood pressure is so high that my work outs have to be short and sweet. But not enough. AND... it causes insomnia so i'm always waking up at 4:00 am and ready to go jogging. Not cool either.
But i had to give it. I just had to. I'm almost done though. I hope this does not become an addiction... that's if it hasn't already become one.
What i love about them is that i feel energized. I'm soooo ready for the day. I eat less which helps my anxiety cuz all i eat is candy anyway and helps me focus on the healthy foods like actual meals and not chocolate as a meal.
It motivates me to work out regardless of my schedule. Usually i'm so exhausted at the end of the day and just want to sleep.
I'm quick and allert.
I can get agressive though. Also not good. Can make me moody or cranky... but with the adrenalin rush i'm in cloud 9
. THe REALLY bad part of these pills are that they are similar to Amphetamine. VERY similar if not the same but in a medical form.
I was supposed to have finished the dosage and made it my last but i forgot how bad i began to feel with them so i stopped half way and i stopped immediately which i shouldn't have done. I should have slowly removed myself from them to avoid any sort of psychological effects such as depression, suicidal thoughts or tendancies, etc. Which i did experience.
I'm just going to take advatage of this and do everything i have to do while i still have the energy because i'm stuck in a situation in which time is ticking and i NEED to do something about my financial situation.
My bro is also worring me. He has been missing football practice because he claims he's not feeling well which in a way i believe because we have been ill for a while. But i feel like it may be something else. I feel like something else is bothering him but he won't open up.
I try to talk to him and try to get him to trust me but it doesn't work. Any advice?
I took him to Knotts with us and offered to buy him anything he wanted but i guess he didn't want to. I always take him wherever i go so he can feel wanted. But he always refuses and wants to stay home and play video games, watch TV or be on the computer all day.
I feel like he feels lonely but i don't know what else to do. He is isolating himself from the family and even freinds.
My parents are doing great right now. They miss us so much as we do with them. My dad seems better as well.
My sis really needs a job but we can't seem to find her a permanent job especially something that would offer full time.
I need to get on this and i need to get on it now because life moves on. I can't sit and watch from the side while everyone around me is being affected.
I hope to come up with solutions soon.
Thanx for listening guys! and thanx for all your advice!
Ciao!
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!
xoxoxo!!!!!
Peaches
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Well maybe if you just take the rest of them and slowly get off of them then you will feel a lot better.
Maybe he just doesnt know how to be social, Im the same way, I just dont know how to do it anymore, your just going to have to keep trying, maybe he will come out of it, trying is all you can really do.
Well she may have to go to a temp agency, that is really the best way to get a job now a days.