peaches

TGIF!!!!!!!! I'm so happy its Friday. Seriously... This is the day i look foward to all week.

Long week if i must add.

Today i went to go see how my car was doing, its almost done, just needs the paint job.

I also have to go to the bank and cash the check. I forgot to drop off my lil bro's football equipment so now i have to leave early so i can drop it off in order for him to attend practice.

I'm so frustrated because with this busy schedule, i have no time to work out. I'm starting to feel slow and lazy. NOT COOOL!!!!

I need to go back and check out some homes i saw to see if we can afford them.

I also seem to be the only one REALLY looking foward to the holidays. Just yesturday i went shopping for Halloween decorations for the office.

My desk is a mess but i need a break! It's so damn busy that i don't get a lunch or a break :/

I sooooo wanna go home.

I was also noticing lately that my Dad seems irritated. Like everytime we talk through Skype we leaves me talking to my mom and he leaves upset.

I really don't like the way he's acting. For one, we only see each other through a screen and he acts like i'm always annoing them. Two, he sometimes makes real sarcastic comments and i can tell my mom feels bad but what can i do?

I'm at that point in which i'm too busy with my life and daily routine that i'm not paying attention to the people around me and their feelings. I mean, i've been there before and i hoped someone would notice and snap me out of it but instead i snapped myself out of it.

Sure my bro has freinds and all but it's not the same. I bet he wishes he had more closure with his family. I don't want to come off like we just see him as another person living in the house.

My damn schedule is drivng me nuuuttsss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Most of all, i need sleep!!!! I'm falling asleep at work, i feel cranky, i'm always tired... ugh!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't do everything and feel this way. I feel like the energy is sucked out of me.

The time i would spend working out i am spending on cooking so now i don't have time to work out. I hate it!!! I set goals for myself and they can't work out.

Then i feel like i have to baby everyone around, like i have to be on their case to make sure everyone is doing their part.

Usually when i feel this way i go on shopping sprees, but this time i can't because i have bills to pay, meds to buy and waaaay too many things to do.

I'm sooo stressed!

Everything has just been one problem after another.

I don't want to complain but i need to get these things off my chest.

So for the good news? My dad got a full time job as a doctor at a pharmacy. This is great because he doesn't have to work as a security guard anymore.

Also, my car is almost done. I can't wait to get it back.

And Halloween! Yay! don't know what i will be this year but i hope to make it fun. I also want to go to Knott's scary farm. Can't wait for that!

Thanksgiving, already planning the dinner. I was just hoping to save up for a nice dining table but i guess that won't happen this year.

UGHHH!!! I'm just soo irrititated!!!!!!!!!!!

... I just want to go home.