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It happend again! This time i woke up at 5:00 am and didn't go back to sleep till 8! Then i had to wake up at 9 for work. I woke up and started thinking about all sorts of things! I felt delusional! You know when your running a fever and your really sick and in between your sleep you constantly wake up thinking you're someone or something somewhere? The most intenze that has ever happened to me was a while back when i was still living with my mom. I woke up in the night believing i was a pirate and the captain to a ship and was worried about the waves knocking it over! What a fucking trip! I'm stressing a lot and the most productive way i can release that stress is by going to the gym. So i got to the point where i'm working out everyday. But it is becoming an OCD! Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I wake up in the middle of the night and think, I can't wait to go to the gym after work, and when i'm even done at the gym i'm like "i can't wait to come back tomorrow", and when i'm at work i'm like, " i want to go home so i can go to the gym". It's driving me crazy! I can be sore and all but i still go. I also keep reminding myself that i gta finish my Harley Quinne tat. In my newest set in MR called "Sweet Flesh" shot by Lorelei, you can somewhat see it. It's still not finished. But my schedule does not let me. I'm too busy tattooing other ppl. Maybe when someone cancels i can go ahead and work on it. I'm excited about saturday cuz i have this girl who will be comming in for some birds on her foot. They look cute but i wonder how they will actually look after they're done. I hope she stays still cuz i know how bad it is to get a tattoo on a foot. My leg kept jumping when i got mine done but i couldnt help it! I wanted someone to just sit on my leg! Lol.

Last night my Daddy called again. Due to his recent accident he got 3 disability days or sick days and has been calling me. It feels great to hear from him! He actually asked me how my day went. He always asks how i'm doing and keeps the conversation short but this time we spoke for 2 hours! He gave me some real good advice about how to help out my lil bro with his teenage struggles and how to help my Mom raise him. Being the oldest i try to act like a parent towards him but i'm not sure if what i'm doing is right. When he does something wrong what's the proper thing to do? My Dad being a Psychologist and M.D. gave me REAL good advice and all of it made sense. It's just that i'm so distracted with my own things that i forget that i need to be there for my family too. So that made me real happy . He will be calling again today .

Wow, i feel like i'm going through an emotional rollercoaster! lol,