pb

the following are re-hashings of previous journal entries. thought i'd bring them up as i can't really think clearly at the moment and both entries sort of mirror how i'm feeling right now.

-pb <---- is now an sb

book: neuromancer
music: massive attack



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don't come near me with those hips, that skin, your smoooooth scent.

i hope your lithe fingertips tangle in that jet black, oh-so sexy hair. ye gods, that hair; don't let it fucking turn me red as it falls across those cherubic cheeks.

don't clamp that full lip so very gently between predator's teeth; lick my blood from razor edges.

don't look askance at me, first coy then hardened and aloof. your eyes are icy fascination, cold as hailstones and just as hard. those hailstones, those windows, they show only twin succubi souls.

don't speak don't smile don't sigh don't cry

i can't abide it.

take your curves and walk them away from where i spin; swish and sway your feminine wiles until you become perfect memory.

torn and spent and desolate and haunted

just leave me be. just like you found me, prone, prostrate...just...lying here, glad to have fallen off that damned roller-coaster; staring the iron in its single eye and singing requiems for an idealistic innocence long since forgotten.

i love you. i hate you. fuck off. please don't go. watch me kill it away and at least fake those tears, like personal saltwater rubbed into my rended flesh. just for me.

just for me.

just for me.