pb

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thank you all for leaving notes. i really do like getting them.

i haven't the will to reply to them all at the moment. i haven't the will to do much else but sleep.

i'm scared shitless my life means nothing.

i feel normal, dull, regular, medium, mediocre. and that pains me.

i could use a change of pace.

i surf, drink, read, and lose myself in movies to wile away the empty minutes so i don't have to listen to them screaming their hollow, pointless lives away as they die around me.

somedays its so fucking hard just to get out of bed. its not getting any easier.

i don't know how people who are less fortunate than me in so many ways keep themselves going.

i wonder, sometimes, if i hit bottom--would it help? doubt it.

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-pb