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somehow talked into going to see dave mathews last night dont ever go see dave mathews band ever


id rather be stabbed in the eye with a poison tipped dildo than ever ever ever do a dmb show again

i think someone promised to buy me a beer and i was nodding and smiling really big then they slipped the DMB question in there at the end like date rape and i was still nodding like the village idiot and thus not only agreed to go but also drive as well friends like this who needs enemies

consequently ive only a few hours sleep in the last 72 hours and i think i dont like puncuation today but for some reason i went for beers after work like a masochist and now im delusional and a bit drunk and in love with you

gonna have another beer then knock off and pass out for blissful fanciful never to be dreams






ive become impossible after everthing ive done i hate myself for what ive become all of my excuses turn to lies maybe god will cover up his eyes god is dead and no one cares im gonna burn this whole world down it took you to make me realize still cannot fix this broken machine my empire of dirt i will let you down she matters when everything is meaningless




delusional yes and just a little bit mad and sooooo

in love

with you




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music: nin
book: forgotten realms something or other