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more random musings:


had to shave away a nice 6 day growth of beard this morning. i noticed a lot of grey in there, which made it look sort of sexxy, if i do say so myself. (for a frame of reference, my profile pic is about a 3 day growth, i'm a walking Y chromosome)


my office wilts my soul.


i drive east in the morning, and the sun kisses me and wakes me up more than the cooling coffee between my legs.


i napped once home today. dreamed of my childhood home and my brother and mowing the lawn.


been lifting again. had no idea how much i missed the pain and the smell of old iron and stalking around listening to Manson and Ministry and getting all sore.


been running again, after not being able to for years. all i needed were the right pair of shoes. no knee surgeries, ortho docs, or painkillers needed.


a friend of mine's marriage is dissolving. i can't even fathom the depths of despair he must be feeling. his lady love, because that's what she was to him, warmed another man's bed for months. he still wants me to be nice to her because she doesn't have any friends. what an amazing person he is. i only hope i have the sack to be a stand up guy like that when that happens to me.



i live in what is probably one of the most beautiful little neighborhoods in the country.


my bed is cold. i don't want to sleep there when its cold.


to Hope Sandoval: i'm just a regular guy with the usual tapestry of mundane desires and dashed hopes. but i promise to be devout and intense as possible in my worship of you.




-pb