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Another Matt & Ben update for those who read this, yes both of you.
I think my actress arrived sober tonight, although I thought I got a whiff of something. It was hard to tell what it was; it could have been her perfume, or a lingering smell from her costume. I don't know, but she seemed much more focused than the last two rehearsals, so that's good.
Tonight was a rehearsal full of doubts. I found myself questioning things I was so sure about days ago: Was that gag funny, does that blocking work, is the pace quick enough. It's all nerves. Tonight was our last rehearsal before we have an audience. I'm afraid I've neglected something and it will become horrifyingly apparent when performed in front of an audience. Granted tomorrow audience is small and consists of only invited people, but it's important they get a good show. I'm afraid they find it boring, or unfunny, or poorly acted, or directed, or worse of all amateur. Gasp! I know that's silly but being a perfectionist I strive to produce the best product that I can. Moreover, for someone pursuing further professional opportunities in the theater, amateur is definitely an adjective you dont want describing your work.
Speaking of amateur, I'm not totally pleased with the technical aspects of the show. The set wobbles every time someone touches it, the lighting is spotty and dull, and some of the sound cues are abrupt. I could fix these things myself but the problem is I don't have the time. These are things I just going to have to let go and hope that the story can keep peoples minds off the technical aspects.