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paulsandman

Ithaca & Cortland New York

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Monday Apr 14, 2003

Apr 14, 2003
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Dark thoughts rise up
Deep in your mind
The killing of hope
The end has begun

The locked psycho-door breaks down
The beast breathes freedom and fire
Blows bloody thoughts into your mind
Demons whisper: "COMMIT SUICIDE!"

Weak is your body,
Helpless your soul,
The beast destroyed your will
Left nothing but an empty shell

Self-destruction leads its way
Your weapons turn against yourself
Cutting through, killing you
A downward spiral, the shadowbeast has won

The shadowbeast calls
A vulture of life
Your worst enemy dwells
From within

Lyrics from the Enemy Within by Archenemy and kinda how I've been feeling lately. Actually to be honest I always had an internal struggle within myself and at times am my own worst enemy saying or doing things rash or just plain stupid. Do I regret these things? Well who doesn't somewhat, but do I dwell upon then at times yes and other times no, I'm pretty good though at moving on. Which is what I need to do with the hard times just move onward and upward.
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demigauge:
everyone hasa struggle...so your not alone in your internal fight...
Apr 14, 2003
bluefreak:
what you need to do is go out have some fun and forget your past and focus on the future and what it has to offer you. *hugs* Demi is right your not alone ....im here for you and if you ever need me just call
Apr 14, 2003

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