I'm a depressing person I admit that fully, part of someone's strengths is recognizing their own faults anyways. I dont know why I'm usually depressed just am, and its nothing medicine, or psychologist, or any of that bullshit can fix. Lets face it too all that is bullshit I know I was on the pills that are supposed to cure your depression and they just made it worse. Oh sure there are times I didn't feel depressed but I'd attribute that too more dulling my senses than actually helping me. Oh and by the way if anyone thinks this for fucking sympathy you are just dead wrong.
The fact is I don't think I even want sympathy sure it feels good, but the fact is you open yourself up for sympathy and then you got the others that laugh at you behind your back as well. Sure theres plenty that are legit too but see the thing that hurts is those that are close to you laughing at you when your not looking. I guess thats exactly what has me down, I mean I could care less what most think but its the one's close to me that sometimes bug me.
Most close to me are great I have alot of respect and love for them. Just lately ah I dont know maybe I'm just too n edge and seeing stuff isn't there. Quite possibly I just got to relax, I mean shit I really want to tell a close friend last night how I'd been feeling that I'd been down but just couldn't for some reason. Are there any solutions I have? I got a number of solutions most good but will take awhile, and some that could fix things immediately but aren't good. I guess I'll just have to do like it the martial arts styles I've studied, be patient and wait for an opening.
The fact is I don't think I even want sympathy sure it feels good, but the fact is you open yourself up for sympathy and then you got the others that laugh at you behind your back as well. Sure theres plenty that are legit too but see the thing that hurts is those that are close to you laughing at you when your not looking. I guess thats exactly what has me down, I mean I could care less what most think but its the one's close to me that sometimes bug me.
Most close to me are great I have alot of respect and love for them. Just lately ah I dont know maybe I'm just too n edge and seeing stuff isn't there. Quite possibly I just got to relax, I mean shit I really want to tell a close friend last night how I'd been feeling that I'd been down but just couldn't for some reason. Are there any solutions I have? I got a number of solutions most good but will take awhile, and some that could fix things immediately but aren't good. I guess I'll just have to do like it the martial arts styles I've studied, be patient and wait for an opening.
Yeah, it hurts that you might think they dont know how youre feeling, but they simply cant know. Sit them down and tell them that youre feeling depressed. It's really the only way for them to know.
Did that help at all?