paulsandman

Well here it goes first journal entry for me and the question is what to talk about? It seems most here talk about feelings how they've felt, so I guess I'll start there. Few people actually know this about me but I'm actually a highly antisocial person and can't stand to be around most people. Partly its because of my empathy. I'm very intuned to how most people are feeling so being in large groups of people is like swimming through a mud puddle for me, I come out covered in flith it feels like. Who knows maybe I'm just being nasty due to my frustration with life in general or usual dissapointment with people. Thats another thing many have dissapointed me so as a result I'm usually wary of most and very selective to who I want the be around. I've heard the same shit alot "give people a chance they'll suprise you" . On occasion a few have but for the most part I'm usually right with my gut instincts when I meet someone. Well anyways I better close this up before it gets anymore depressing, but who knows maybe I should lower my expectations or just give more a chance definately something to meditate on.