paulsandman

Once again I have the greatest friends in the world. It had to happen eventually, but Sunday it was my turn to lose it in a repressed emotional outburst and lose it I did. What reduced me to such a mess finally well upteen years of repressing anger at my father. Yes its the old goth scream of anguish "daddy never loved me" While this isn't completely his recent stance towards made me say once again "Enough!!" You'd think with me going through a somewhat tough time getting bounced from my job I'd have the complete support or at the very least some encouragement at this point in my life. However no I still got the old vote of no confidence. Well honestly to say it again "Fuck you dad I never needed anything from you before and I don't need it now" Still it hurts a bit that an important member of my own family never believed it me and never will....