I still feel horrible tonight last night was by far one of the worst nights ever at goth night. Looking back maybe it wasn't such a good idea to go there this soon. It all started when I brought my best friend and her new b/f back to her home in Ithaca I suggest we go to goth night. All good so far all dressed up everyone is looking nice, but my friend she kept talking about her ex who she knew might be there. No biggie though I mean she has a new guy they're done so I didn't think anything of it at first. She kept talking about her ex though and even hanging all over her b/f when he did show. Then suddenly she went over and started talking with her ex.
Now heres where it gets complicated her b/f who is also a friend of mine looked suprised and even said to me "what the hell" I was a little suprised too since she had been mostly ripping on her ex but none of my bussiness right, its for them to work out. Well compassion got the better of me because she continued to talked to her ex and was kinda neglecting her b/f. Now its all well and good if they need to talk but seeing as how he was hurt by this I felt it was time as a friend to step in.
Well the first suggestion of her talking to her b/f had her walk away from me on the dance floor. Now heres where things really start to go down hill, I then pulled her away from her ex and told her sharply "Look at him up there you're here with him go fucking explain to him whats going on!" She hauled off and slapped me... Now things are really spiralling out of control as my instincts coupled with years of martial arts training took over. I didn't strike her I would never do that but the first rule is create some distance between you and the attacker so I shoved her away from me(not hard) with a "DON'T EVER FUCKING HIT ME AGAIN!".
I wasn't hurt by it but more suprised a tad upset. So now she's upset and out on the patio so I followed her out there to possiblely talk some sense into her. Then though tempers took over with her freaking out and me grabbing a hold her to try and calm her down but our exchange went something like this "Listen To Me!!" "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND" "JUST CALM DOWN AND LISTEN" "LET GO OF ME!" "NOT TILL YOU CALM DOWN" "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WE TOGETHER FOR 3 YEARS" "I understand listen to me" "NO YOU DON'T SOMEBODY HELP ME!!" "STOP IT CALM DOWN" Repeat rinse
Well that definately wasn't me attention I finally just stormed off back inside well she stayed out there crying. What did I do you may ask how did I feel? Like shit plain and simple I went into my car and spent a good 15 minutes with my jacket pulled over my head so no one would see me and my face buried into my steering wheel you can probably guess what I was doing. Thankfully no one was hurt, which I really didn't want to hurt her anyways I would NEVER hurt her either. We ended up going home and talking it out and after a few tears shared and alot of hugging her and I came to an understanding.
Still though I feel really bad about it my heart is pretty heavy. I'm not looking for any justification for what I did or looking to get her crucified for what she did, we were both right and both wrong. I just really felt though that she was wrong and as a friend I wanted to tell her that espacially since she told me something once that really stuck with me "Paul takes care fo Melissa cause no one else will"
Now heres where it gets complicated her b/f who is also a friend of mine looked suprised and even said to me "what the hell" I was a little suprised too since she had been mostly ripping on her ex but none of my bussiness right, its for them to work out. Well compassion got the better of me because she continued to talked to her ex and was kinda neglecting her b/f. Now its all well and good if they need to talk but seeing as how he was hurt by this I felt it was time as a friend to step in.
Well the first suggestion of her talking to her b/f had her walk away from me on the dance floor. Now heres where things really start to go down hill, I then pulled her away from her ex and told her sharply "Look at him up there you're here with him go fucking explain to him whats going on!" She hauled off and slapped me... Now things are really spiralling out of control as my instincts coupled with years of martial arts training took over. I didn't strike her I would never do that but the first rule is create some distance between you and the attacker so I shoved her away from me(not hard) with a "DON'T EVER FUCKING HIT ME AGAIN!".
I wasn't hurt by it but more suprised a tad upset. So now she's upset and out on the patio so I followed her out there to possiblely talk some sense into her. Then though tempers took over with her freaking out and me grabbing a hold her to try and calm her down but our exchange went something like this "Listen To Me!!" "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND" "JUST CALM DOWN AND LISTEN" "LET GO OF ME!" "NOT TILL YOU CALM DOWN" "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WE TOGETHER FOR 3 YEARS" "I understand listen to me" "NO YOU DON'T SOMEBODY HELP ME!!" "STOP IT CALM DOWN" Repeat rinse
Well that definately wasn't me attention I finally just stormed off back inside well she stayed out there crying. What did I do you may ask how did I feel? Like shit plain and simple I went into my car and spent a good 15 minutes with my jacket pulled over my head so no one would see me and my face buried into my steering wheel you can probably guess what I was doing. Thankfully no one was hurt, which I really didn't want to hurt her anyways I would NEVER hurt her either. We ended up going home and talking it out and after a few tears shared and alot of hugging her and I came to an understanding.
Still though I feel really bad about it my heart is pretty heavy. I'm not looking for any justification for what I did or looking to get her crucified for what she did, we were both right and both wrong. I just really felt though that she was wrong and as a friend I wanted to tell her that espacially since she told me something once that really stuck with me "Paul takes care fo Melissa cause no one else will"
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Not nice!