Hummm whats on my mind today? Well for starters it seems I've shaken off my depression a tad. Drinking and dancing at my favorite night spot the other night helped alot to releave it and seeing a few friend helped too. On the other hand though I'm still looking for some justification I'm still unemployed and I dunno its seems like I just lost it...
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demigauge:
bluefreak:
you know your not a loser *hugs*. losers dont have kick ass friends like me and Demi and all your other cool friends. it will get better just give it time and hang in there. you need me you know where to find me and you know how to use a phone too *L*.
Transendental meditation is great today I was the water. Formless, shapeless, and flowing free so maybe tommorrow I'll try to be der wind.
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bluefreak:
ok you can come too....but you still cant watch *L*
demoivre:
I had a friend who was very into TM. Myself, I like to sit in simple zazen. Ahhhh....
Relax more than an 80's New Wave classic by Franky Goes To Hollywood its what I need to do right now. Sure it sucks that I'm laid off but no use kicking myself over it. See the thing is while I don't mind not working I'm the type of person that needs to be doing something and when I don't have my time balanced I...
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bluefreak:
yes relaxation is needed. *hugs* hang in there things will work out in the end....they always do.
Dark thoughts rise up
Deep in your mind
The killing of hope
The end has begun
The locked psycho-door breaks down
The beast breathes freedom and fire
Blows bloody thoughts into your mind
Demons whisper: "COMMIT SUICIDE!"
Weak is your body,
Helpless your soul,
The beast destroyed your will
Left nothing but an empty shell
Self-destruction leads its way
Your weapons turn against yourself
Cutting...
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Deep in your mind
The killing of hope
The end has begun
The locked psycho-door breaks down
The beast breathes freedom and fire
Blows bloody thoughts into your mind
Demons whisper: "COMMIT SUICIDE!"
Weak is your body,
Helpless your soul,
The beast destroyed your will
Left nothing but an empty shell
Self-destruction leads its way
Your weapons turn against yourself
Cutting...
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demigauge:
everyone hasa struggle...so your not alone in your internal fight...
bluefreak:
what you need to do is go out have some fun and forget your past and focus on the future and what it has to offer you. *hugs* Demi is right your not alone ....im here for you and if you ever need me just call
Sorry for the scare just my depression and general rage at the world and life itself getting the better of me.
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paulsandman:
Yes rage building PAUL SMASH!!!!
bluefreak:
rage at the world is fun but have rage at things in numbers is better i think cuz then you can do more damage.
Someone just fuckin kill me and get it over with already.
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demigauge:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
no i'm suppose to die first
no i'm suppose to die first
bluefreak:
NO dieing!!!!! but if you must die make sure you die with me we can go to hell together and reak some havoc.
Oh alright just for you Melody ;-)
Blah being unemployed sucks I mean getting a check for nothing is cool and all but would be nice to have a job. Now yesterday I was driving down the road in Cortland which has alot of potholes and driving by was someone in a Land Rover with there hazard lights on going very slowly over the potholes....
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Blah being unemployed sucks I mean getting a check for nothing is cool and all but would be nice to have a job. Now yesterday I was driving down the road in Cortland which has alot of potholes and driving by was someone in a Land Rover with there hazard lights on going very slowly over the potholes....
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bluefreak:
ok old drivers should have their licenses taken away cuz they cant drive at all. i am not a ford person im a dodge ram type person i like BIG bulky move your house trucks. ford is just a nother way to say "shit on wheels" ( no offence to you ford lovers out there)
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demoivre:
People who drive big cars/trucks/SUV's don't necessarily know how to drive over ANY conditions, which is why they get big cars/trucks/SUV's. Kinda stupid if you ask me. 
I was saddened to find out last week that my favorite shithole here in Cortland the 3rd Rail was shut down. Make no mistake the place was a complete shithole but thats what gave it character. Aside from my learning experience there on why you should not mix Gin&Tonic Labbats and Jack Daniels shots, oh and btw mixed together they make one big mess *l*....
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adobe:
Update your journal entry, dammit! I'm tired of coming over here to read the same entry over and over again! Grr!
debrajean:
haha! I was asking if your name had to do with Morphine...and if you had any
Wisdom tooth was pulled out yesterday and still I have a bottle full of pain killers, I haven't touched one of them. It the wrestler Mick Foley's books he states how he would use pain killers limited or not. This is good actually its my belife as well that you shouldn't be using stuff like pain killers except for extreme pain. I think its actually...
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faith:
*whispers in your ear*....check your email.
{{{hugs}}}
{{{hugs}}}
demigauge:
damn..i say give me pain killers anytime i ahve and injury or what not
This stuff with Eve being removed as an SG hits a little close to home for me. I recently parted ways with a girlfriend that is a white supremist. I honestly loved her very much and didn't care what she believed in, because hey peoples beliefs are peoples beliefs. Unfortunately she saw something in me besides just her boyfriend and wanted me to join her...
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paulsandman:
I dunno if Eve was or if she wasn't but my exgirlfriend is a white supremist. Actually she says she's a skinhead but still has a full head of hair.
huny:
I'm sorry but there is NO shiny side to being a hateful racist. NONE.
and no I don't think eve is/was a white supremacist...I don't think shes racist at all from what I've seen/read of her.
and no I don't think eve is/was a white supremacist...I don't think shes racist at all from what I've seen/read of her.
Lets see here the week before last I get dumped by my white supremist girlfriend because I like niggers, spics and jews. Last Friday I get laid off form my job and this week I'm getting 4 wisdow teeth pulled. What else do I need a fucking anemia tube shoved up my ass. But anyways I got big plans for me and my friends. Pissing...
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demigauge:
hmm..i don't think that will solve anything
paulsandman:
Of course it won't solve anything but what the hell ya know?
Slow drivers piss me off. I'm not talking about to slow safe type but the people that feel the need to drive extremely slow. I mean its fucking annoying and then they get pissed and wonder why people follow close and just pass them. Like the other day I was going 55 but came up on some hillbilly going maybe 25 miles an hour to...
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evel:
*sigh* sounds like my everyday automotive experience in Orange County. I've given up on trying to understand what makes some people think it's ok to drive the way that they do.....
stellartrane:
Move to Jersey, Everyone goes 80 or above no matter what the speed limit...