patrlot

I just said goodbye to my parents, who had been in town for a week. They came in because it was Easter and because I haven't been able to get back to Detroit since Christmas (i'm from a very very close family...italians...)

Anywho, I don't know who else might agree/disagree with me but isn't it amazing the feeling that surrounds you when family is around? Assuming you have strong ties with your family as I do mine, it's amazing. the whole time they were here, I felt so secure at such an insecure point in my life. The whole time they were here, I felt as though no matter what might come about, I was safe. I was protected and not a thing could challenge that. I forgot about bills for the time being, i spent money on things as though it didn't matter (but oh does it...).

I guess I don't quite know what I'm saying; rather I just wanted to share it with people I don't know. I don't really have too many friends on here because I'm not the most active member and so I figured rather than write this in a journal, I'd send it into cyberspace.

so yeah, I liked that feeling. It was nice, like being young again. It was, in short, safe.

I miss that.

a lot.

who feels safe anymore? I know I sure don't; I feel like anything might happen at any moment that changes everything. The moment they left, that feeling, that insecurity, came crashing back and I was alone.

I want my safety back.

how about you?