partythighs

im sitting here watching rock star inxs. i love this show because there is this really bitchy guy on it who makes faces everytime someone else does well or gets compliments from the judges. then there was this lady who was like "this song is hard because I CANNOT CONTROL THE LEVEL OF MY VOICE". there are always these so-so performances that make people cry too. its funny. i also watched tommy lee goes to college, which was great if not ridiculous. im not selling ice cream in the park at all these week cause my job is totally dicking me over, so i dont have that much to do. im packing, but its going slowly. well, nothing is actually packed at all, but im sorting and getting rid of my eighteen years worth of belongings. i think i will try and shoot another set while im in portland. i guess i can see some reasons why my frist set was not accepted, plus ive lost some weight (working around food= never wanted to eat or see food ever again), and the scary pills are making my skin a lot better. i wonder if you can get a staff photographer to shoot a set if the first one has been rejected? ill figure something out. i mean to me the one big qualm i have with suicide girls is, is it better to have girls that are really into something, or girls that are better looking? i mean, we live in this era of urban outfitters and easy listening "punk", so who really is in a subculture anymore? i mean shit, its like, you see some girl who wore abercrombie in the 9th grade and made fun of yr spiky jewlery or whatever, and now shes got eyeliner and loves ashlee simpson or whomever. still is mean to you though. but also still a skinny blonde girl. its hard for me to have an answer as a straight girl, and also a girl that has some interest in bands like the shins, who are very popular obviously. i still really appreciate that suicide girls exists, and while all the girls arent my cup of tea, i like most of them and the site as a whole. its more of a problem with the world in general i guess. anyways, what was my point? oh yeah tv is funny. im trying hard not to buy a dress i like at urban outfitters with my no money. im trying to have more money. i will probably end up living in a cardboard box. and i have about 60 bug bites. i also have no friends to read my journal entries. oh and i really loved that new kikka set. if i were a lesbian, i tell you.