parrell134

Hey hey to anyone who happens to read my blogs. I'm not sure if anyone has read them, but I just feel like voicing some stuff I've been thinking about even if no one reads this. I think it's time I start actually talking about what's on my mind rather than bottling it up and trying to deal with everything on my own. No man is an island, as the saying goes. Anyway, lately I've been thinking about and reflecting on my life up to this point. Right now, I kind of feel lost, like my internal GPS is constantly recalculating. I can't help but think whether or not I'm on the "right path" for me. I'm somewhat lost as to what direction I really want to go in life. I realize I'm young and have plenty of time, but it still gets to me sometimes. I keep asking, "What am I doing with my life? What's my goal here?". I feel very directionless as of late. Just moving from one day to the next without a clear purpose. I'm not sure why I'm unwilling to talk to my friends or family about this either. If I had a girlfriend I'd probably talk to her about it, but that's a separate issue. I've also been having recurring dreams. Not nightmares though. They don't frighten me, they just get me thinking. In my dreams, I'm always running from something or someone that I can't see. Not entirely sure what it means. Most likely that I'm trying to avoid something in my life. But I'm always running. And I wake up before it catches me. Anyway, that's all for now. Thanks for reading, and hopefully I'll have this figured out if and when I decide to write my next blog.