paragon

I am so confused right now that I don't even know what to write. I've now been in Denver since Friday and I've wanted to write in here so I can get things out and hopefully be able to deal with them but I just haven't had the words to express myself. This feeling is so damn strange. Everything here is foreign and strange to me. I can't ever get comfortable. When I was at home in Indy, I knew where everything was. I had friends to call for fun. I didn't really ever get bored because I always knew things to do. Now I'm just sitting here with this sick feeling in my stomach when I think of a few people back home. Even just hanging out watching TV doesn't feel natural. I think the biggest problem is that I don't feel like I'm at home. I can't think of anything else really to say. I just feel uncomfortable. I think I'm going to go take a really long shower and try to relax.