paragon

I dont understand people who dont listen to there heart. To me, caring about someone and looking for love is the one thing that keeps me going through the day. Just the thought of finding someone so special that you cant imagine spending time with anyone else, thats what life is about to me. Why isnt everyone like that? This is the most sickening feeling Ive ever had. How can you tell me the things you do and then just walk away from it all while still telling me how much I mean to you and how happy you are when youre with me as you leave. You say that being with me makes you happier then youve ever been, but then you leave because youre afraid to let go and run with it. I just dont understand. I really dont. And to be honest I dont know that I would ever want to understand that thinking. Because if I did, then what am I living for if Im just willing to give up what Ive found. Im ill. I cant even think about this any more.