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Wednesday Mar 05, 2003

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Portland isn't working for me. I came here 3 months ago: my goals were to start a band and write a book. I accomplished neither of these things here, and have been quite miserable since I arrived. The only guy I connected with was a sociopath who ended up ditching me at a rave I took him to. (and stealing my shit) The reason we connected was because we were both able to hop onto any wavelength at any time.

(The difference between the two of us is that I don't use this wavelength hopping power to hurt other people.)

"The scene" is already established in "PDX." I need to live in a city that I can contribute to. A city that I can help create. Portland has already been created: things are done in a specific way. It seems impossible to meet new people. I don't feel very welcome.

The main reason I'm moving is the roommate situation. I was unable to find anyone that would be able to tolerate living with me for more than a day. I'm the apocalypse discoridan equivlant of a flaming homosexual, see. Couldn't find others who were as open about their thought patterns as I was. Very few psychonauts. Not enough conversations on intergalactic time travel. Not enough twisted minds. A bunch of hipstser drones, really. A definite gap between me and the rest.

The are others who feel this way, but they don't seem to leave their houses. I'm off to go check out random cities and find my people. Move in with them. Rebirth.
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brookelynne:
just dont settle down, write your book on the road, meet people as you go, i've met the most interesting people on my way through,
everything becomes trite if you give it long enough. just dont give it long enough, wait until your ready to do something like "settle down" and if your never ready then than thats ok.
And fuck all the trendy fucks who make you feel out of place.
they are either insecure, or far too comfortable with their image and social status that they bought at the mall.
there are some decent people. but from my experience you have to look long and hard to find them...but they are worth it.

Mar 7, 2003
vastad:
be strong beautiful. maybe you should come to Stockholm and open this city up. smile tongue

Seriously, there are kids here who have gone a little nuts because for all it's vaunted 'culture' and music scene...it's really quite empty of anything remotely apocalyptic, trippy, crazy, discordian or primal.

And don't worry. Continue on your merry way and those you need to know will find you.

hmmm...Portland huh?....what's a close city you could try...nope...not knowledgeable enough.

Wow...I just saw that tryptamine plugged me in your comments. hahaha....what a synchronicity....

[Edited on Mar 08, 2003]
Mar 8, 2003

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