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So wow... a year has passed. Thanks to whomever got me the gift account again! It came at the perfect time!

Okay... how to run this down... I've lived in my apartment for a year. It... hasn't been as advertised. This place is more like a cell than a home. I'm trying to move, but Section 8 has been frozen indefinitely and no moving option has come up.

I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Not the happiest moment in my life by far. I'm medicated, so I'm happier, but now of course my brain has turned to the whys of my condition rather than the whats, and I'm driving myself bonkers chasing my own mental tail.

My grandfather passed in January. I miss him, but I am okay.

I am applying for disability based on the severity of my mental condition. I've had several evaluations done and things look hopeful. I only want partial disability though, I need to work to feel complete but I need to keep my stress levels low.

I've changed my diet. Stopped smoking (for the most part), stopped drinking (for the most part) and began eating healthier at home. I've managed to drop fifty pounds in the last four months!

So a few downs, a few ups, but I've done my best to change my world view to something more positive. I have embraced and renewed my faith in God, but I'm not here to convert anyone. I'm here for good friends, great groups and wonderful women. I believe God is love, and God is acceptance, as I love and accept all despite faiths and credos. I also try to see all the difficulties and grief I go through as useful, to reach out to others who find themselves as desperate or hopeless.

I've re-entered the dating scene, slowly but surely. If anyone in the Columbus area wants to get together for dinner or something, let me know!

I feel like I'm becoming myself again. Better than I have in a long time.

I'm dying to hear what's been up with all of you! Write me! Post on the blog! Do something!