papaspank

I feel so stagnent. I need change. I feel unaccomplished. I wish I could just pick up and move somewhere. But I can't. Rather won't. Debt here, commitments there. Powers of non-ambition and attachment to material goods anywhere I look. So much crap in this appartment I don't need. That I don't really need. I feel like I'm going through some pre-mid life crisis. I no longer lust for the things I should. Maybe I do. I dunno. I need to find some state of happiness. Not just some state of passive existance where all I do is exist. I've started to compile a list of 100 things I want to do before I die. I will share it when it is complete. If it ever completes...for some reason it is harder to do then I imagined...this list. I need to sleep. I need to get up soon so I can go to work and pay off debt and come home and sit here and go to sleep so that I can repeat this stupid cyle.

On a brighter note, I saw Sin City with a friend. I got in for free cuz there was some special screening for some new movie...I used that special pass to get in. So with the money I saved I got to have a veggie burrito with no dairy from taco time. Obviously the no dairy part was too hard to comprehend because she put cheese on it and I was like...non dairy please. so she tossed it out and started again. such a waste, but I don't want that cheese on there. or that sour cream. But she could have saved it and ate it later or something. Anyways, the movie was soooo good. So like the comics. I was impressed, and I didn't eat popcorn(mostly because I had some this afternoon). I have this thing where if I watch a movie I have to have popcorn so...yeah. congrats to me. Now time to sleep. I think tomorrow after work I will play my bass. I think re-learn is a better word for it has been a while since I last played it(in a crazy distorted/ska/punk/reggae drum and bass jam with my bro). But now to more pressing matters....like sleep. watch out... damn. he stole my pants...