...worth more then you value me at...
on relationships.
is reconciliation a worth-while option? I mean. people say it is. you've invested all this time and love into this...so why not try to make it work? I think about it and sometimes I agree. Other times...other times I think, yeah...I've invested a lot of time and love into my arm...but I'd be damned if I kept it knowing that there was a cancer there and it was gonna spread...or that it got caught under a bunch of rocks and if I didn't chew it off I'd die...
on travel.
i want to travel more. I was supposed to go on a few road trips this summer, but they never panned out. I was also very close to picking up and disappearing without telling anyone this Aug. as well. I was going to leave the country as well as the continent. I had looked into everything planned it and budgeted it out. I figured I was single and wasn't happy with things here...so why not? it fell through. much like Rancid fell through last year.
on moving.
I'm excited to move. or. is it more correct to say 'was'. no. I still am excited. yes. that much is true. But I learnt that...maybe things arn't how I thought they were in my head. Which brings us to...
myself.
I put others before me. I give way more then I ever recieve (especially when it comes to significant others). I don't always tell. but I almost aways show. I over think. I over react. I go all in. I get hurt. I make things. More people have quit on me, then I have quit on. I do little things. I am nice. I get taken advantage of. I am too nice. I try to stand up for myself (every once and a while). It doesn't convince. I am marks' raging emotions. I am an amazing person. I am an amazing person laying on the ground beside other amazing items that people leave behind.
a memory.
Once upon a time there was a girl who made me a cake. Actually....three cakes. The first two she didn't think were good enough to give to me. Who does that? And is it wrong to think that as one of the sweetest (granted, it is sorta silly) things anyone has ever done for me? And if it is wrong, what does that say about the things people have done for me?
epiphany.
she would not do the same for me.
on relationships.
is reconciliation a worth-while option? I mean. people say it is. you've invested all this time and love into this...so why not try to make it work? I think about it and sometimes I agree. Other times...other times I think, yeah...I've invested a lot of time and love into my arm...but I'd be damned if I kept it knowing that there was a cancer there and it was gonna spread...or that it got caught under a bunch of rocks and if I didn't chew it off I'd die...
on travel.
i want to travel more. I was supposed to go on a few road trips this summer, but they never panned out. I was also very close to picking up and disappearing without telling anyone this Aug. as well. I was going to leave the country as well as the continent. I had looked into everything planned it and budgeted it out. I figured I was single and wasn't happy with things here...so why not? it fell through. much like Rancid fell through last year.
on moving.
I'm excited to move. or. is it more correct to say 'was'. no. I still am excited. yes. that much is true. But I learnt that...maybe things arn't how I thought they were in my head. Which brings us to...
myself.
I put others before me. I give way more then I ever recieve (especially when it comes to significant others). I don't always tell. but I almost aways show. I over think. I over react. I go all in. I get hurt. I make things. More people have quit on me, then I have quit on. I do little things. I am nice. I get taken advantage of. I am too nice. I try to stand up for myself (every once and a while). It doesn't convince. I am marks' raging emotions. I am an amazing person. I am an amazing person laying on the ground beside other amazing items that people leave behind.
a memory.
Once upon a time there was a girl who made me a cake. Actually....three cakes. The first two she didn't think were good enough to give to me. Who does that? And is it wrong to think that as one of the sweetest (granted, it is sorta silly) things anyone has ever done for me? And if it is wrong, what does that say about the things people have done for me?
epiphany.
she would not do the same for me.
brightredscream:
Good to hear from you hon ♥
makeshiftman:
ska. tomorrow.