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New Beginnings and Hope..

Oct 11, 2016
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Two years ago I left the modeling world. I almost completely left most of the social world...

I no longer believed in myself or what I could be capable of. I harbored a lot of doubt and hurt. I couldn't do it anymore and disappeared...I spent the least two years waiting for something, I didn't know what it was, but there was a much needed step back I needed to take in order to find just that...
I am spending more time focusing on who I am or what I am becoming. I lost a lot of people around me, friendships, family, relationships. But they knew this is what I needed to do...
The biggest confession is I have spent those two years being a doubtful coward. I stepped back from the site, cause of personal and emotional troubles. Certain events also left a bad taste in my mouth...
I was struggling with severe depression and anxiety. It almost swallowed me whole. With the help of some extraordinary people, I have become much stronger, more empowered, and more comfortable with myself. I am slowly starting to love myself again, finding out who I am, pushing myself further, breaking barriers, and of course; modeling again. I slowly started to pick up all the things I loved, but ran away from. Why I ran away, I honestly could not tell you. But I know it's not something I want to do again.
I moved away, broke free, and I'm starting over. This time, I may cry, I may cower, but I'm done running...
So here's to new beginnings, and new found hope...
I'm happy to announce I will be gracing your screens once again in November. My come back set, called "Breathe". I find it to be a fitting title for someone who needs to do just that. Heh..
I want to thank everyone in the past and in the present. Thank you for all your patience and support! In one way or another, bad or good, you played a role in some way for me. I look forward to once again enjoying in all that is this site, and love it all over again. I would be in awe if you joined me along for the ride. <3
For now, I shall catch your eye, with pretty teasers. I am very proud of the direction my modeling has taken over this year. I am excited to grow and see where it will end up. Along with everything else I love and AM capable of! :) These were shot by my dearest friend and mentor, Wade Edwards (Darthwader12) he just made an account. I would be happy to know you followed and added him. He is a wizard with a lens. :)


Until next time, my sweets..
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lillithrose:
Beautiful!
Oct 12, 2016
paon:
Thank you my dear @lillithrose 😍😍
Oct 12, 2016

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