I feel like such a tool. I think I have somehow managed to hurt someone, and I am not sure quite how I did...allI can say, as I know you will read this, is that I really do value your friendship and I miss you terribly...so, i do hope you will be back along. I have seen what you put in yuor blog and its kinda upsetting, knowing I am causing so much heartache, but please understand I just have no idea what to do 
