pantsonfire

it's been a long time since i've been in a relationship. granted, there was the summer fling with k, but that was so short lived that it doesn't deserve much attention as a relationship. but my current thing has been active about five months, long enough for misunderstandings to occur.

i forgot about those, it's been so long. it sucks. i watch my back when i talk now, i'm aware of who's sitting across from me at the bar, whose next to the person i'm sitting next to, who's next to them. it's paranoia.

i told her that i had a conversation with a friend of hers that made me uncomfortable. she asked me to elaborate, and i declined because i was at work and there were other people around me. i didn't want to talk about it anyway. well, she called her friend and found out from her what the conversation was about and now i seem like a loose-lipped asshole who runs his mouth (when in actuality, i got so uncomfortable that i withdrew from the conversation and felt shitty).

how do i dig myself out of this one?

ah, i just needed to vent a little bit.