pantsonfire

this is the beginning of the end. we energies shut off my electricity this morning, so i'm updating from a coffehouse because the library i used to go to before i had dsl filters out sg now. what bullshit! i used to do updates at libraries all the time!! life without electricity sucks. no clocks, no way to cook, no light in the bathroom so i have to shower under ice cold water in total darkness and hope i washed all the dirt off my balls. i guess this lifestyle could be called "urban frontierism". i owe too much to even consider getting the lights turned on again.

so my fridge is still cold, but since i'm on the outs with jenni & kelly i feel like an ass calling over there to ask if i can bring my food over so it won't rot. and when i get evicted i will have nowhere to stay because jenni & kelly were my lifeline until that got all fucked up.

it's funny how things come together to beat someone down. even my po box fee is due now. what great timing, eh? don't worry, i'll get by. i just need to get rid of a lot of furniture and stuff because i don't know where i'm going to live in august, or maybe september. and besides my here & there work, still no job, and the unemployment free-ride will end soon. i hope they give me two weeks notice, so i can make a hard push in the last week. i even begged for a dishwasher job last night @ palomino. my buddy david bartends there & he said they'd hire me if i lied and said i was an experienced line cook. what the hell does a line cook do? i could probably do that.

but at least i still can drink. best part of cactus life now is that employees drink for 1/2 price. now cactus is even cheaper than the old man bars, and that preserves my ability to still leave decent tips - and get fucked up, too. eh, so if you want furniture, let me know. i'm only keeping my books, records, musical gear, bed, 1 easy chair, my coffeetable, and bookshelves.

i wonder how many blowjobs i'd have to give to earn $700??