pantsonfire

what a crazy time this is. i don't sleep at my house - the party is always at jen & kelly's and there are two extra beds there. last night we hit up the Y-not 2 for some drinks - it was jesse's birthday. that place was fucking lame. i was like "who do i have to blow to get a drink around here??" it took 10 minutes just to get a beer and jen & i decided to go in search of greener pastures. so we hit up wolski's tavern for a few beers and it was a better setting for us. crowded, but not completely packed in like sardines. we had a chance to talk, but it was more like jen quizzing me on details of my sexual history. dates, places, numbers, & more. which was fine, but i started to get a bit uncomfortable the way she was looking at me. i'm no expert, but i got the eyes that wanted to take things across the friends-only line & i don't know how i'd feel about that.

in general the last week or so i've been a little uncomfortable in everything i do. like maybe my mind is lethargic - not firing on all cylinders. i'm usually so ON with them, that if i have an average night maybe it seems to them like i'm completely OFF. a week or two ago i thought i had a good handle on the interpersonal relationships in my life, but now i realize that maybe i don't know so much. that's fine with me though - it doesn't have to be about knowing for me.

so tonight i'm going out to whitewater for a birthday party. same cast & crew so we'll see how that goes.