pandara

Yesterday... 20 mile bike ride. I was complained a lot in the beginning. My muscles were tight and wouldn't release. Then I rode up a huge, like hard to walk up huge, hill and felt much better. The last 14 miles were great.
Today... Woke up at 5. Hit the gym by 6. Did the elliptical for 20 minutes, then some arm machines for a bit. 6:30 into the pool. Swam 30 laps. wahhhhh.
Now I need to get some work done at home and then head off to work. I love my job!
Still having issues at home. My mother and I have NO communication skills. We just don't communicate. I feel like I have done something wrong. I didn't ask her to move here. I was happy that she was. She didn't look for a job until she was broke. Then her car broke down. I gave her the money to fix it. The person that fixed it didn't do it right. So I bought a cheap truck that she could drive. She won't. She has helped with the kids all summer. Not very happily. I never asked her to though. Her purpose for deciding to come here was to help. I haven't paid her to do so. She is my mom, their grandmother. Now I am feeling like she feels trapped and I am supposed to do something to fix it. Well I have 5 kids during the summer, a husband, a dog, 2 cats and some chickens. I can't afford to help anyone. Life???