So apparently I'm on rapid blog mode. I am working my way out of a hole. So I apologize now my blog becoming the type of blog that makes me cringe to read.
I had a good run. I passed tests, I got a great job, I moved, I got licensed and certified. There are so many positives.
The dust is beginning to settled. The reality of my life is very different than it used to be. My responsibilities have increased and my clients are very different than they used to be. I used to see hippys, now I see christians. Its a different crowd. I used to be the more conservative of my group now I am the more extreme. I'm tired all of the time.
We figured out that we were at the birth center for 8 days. and nights. I think I went home for a few hours once or twice. I didn't sleep solid for all that time. We took turns sleepiing for 2 to 3 hours in the nights. Reflecting on it I think wow!
My lifestyle has never been one of isolation. I lived in my last community for over 10 years. There was seldom a time that I didn't see someone I knew whenever I left my house. the hubby hated it. He said I knew everyone in town. His statement is pretty close to true. So wow. It was pointed out to me last night that I'm in transition and its hard.
So with this transition has come sadness, anger, attention seeking and all kinds of emotions that I don't have comfort with. There was a time when my mind was very unhealthy. I have started to have this worry that I was going there again. I think I have realized that I am not though. It most likely is just exhaustion in a time of transition. Go figure.
Sorry for being such an ass and thankyou and have a nice day.
Still taking vacation ideas.
I had a good run. I passed tests, I got a great job, I moved, I got licensed and certified. There are so many positives.
The dust is beginning to settled. The reality of my life is very different than it used to be. My responsibilities have increased and my clients are very different than they used to be. I used to see hippys, now I see christians. Its a different crowd. I used to be the more conservative of my group now I am the more extreme. I'm tired all of the time.
We figured out that we were at the birth center for 8 days. and nights. I think I went home for a few hours once or twice. I didn't sleep solid for all that time. We took turns sleepiing for 2 to 3 hours in the nights. Reflecting on it I think wow!
My lifestyle has never been one of isolation. I lived in my last community for over 10 years. There was seldom a time that I didn't see someone I knew whenever I left my house. the hubby hated it. He said I knew everyone in town. His statement is pretty close to true. So wow. It was pointed out to me last night that I'm in transition and its hard.
So with this transition has come sadness, anger, attention seeking and all kinds of emotions that I don't have comfort with. There was a time when my mind was very unhealthy. I have started to have this worry that I was going there again. I think I have realized that I am not though. It most likely is just exhaustion in a time of transition. Go figure.
Sorry for being such an ass and thankyou and have a nice day.
Still taking vacation ideas.
Secondly.... thanks for sharing and baring ur feelings... it makes us feel a part of u and that maybe we can help and be there for u, or at least just be there to listen, a sounding board to help u work through things!!!
Thirdly.... if there ever was anyone capable of weathering a storm, it is u. Transition is always tough because it means "moving our cheese" from a former comfort zone to one of unknown possibilities. When we look back on it, we see the benefits of change but sometimes living through it can cause all the symptoms u r experiencing.
Fourthly.... u r NOT an ASS and thanks again for letting us glimpse the inner u!