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Living in wine country these days.

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Monday Jan 19, 2009

Jan 19, 2009
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I'm so freakin retarded.
I know that we don't use that word anymore but I was born in the early 70's so fuck it.
I am just still all fucked up in the head.
I think it must be my winter bi-polarity or something.
It seems every winter I get a bit figity and start trippin on all kinds of weird shit.

I'm still attached to the fuck off. So I guess you can just do that fo sho.
Isn't it so amazing how the human being works oh and the games people play.
I suppose every game has it's burn and I'm totally sizzling hot.

My psychosis rises up by the lack of the ever so refreshing zzzzzz's. I think I have officially spun out. Incredibly enough I'm still very well balanced in the "real world", it's only here I feel like a fucking crazy retard.

I wish I could explain it better but it has to do with you and you and you and you and you. I find my mania sparked and my depression sneaking up and tapping it on the shoulder. What the fuck winter? You fucking got me when I least fucking expected it. shit!

I'm feeling more myself than usual and the myself that I'm feeling is that familiar girl that changes my life and acts on a whim. Oh sweet whimsical me and I'll kick your ass too so watch out.

Oh my lovely psychosis I wish I knew how to embrace thee, or is that what I do the best.

I feel like I need to vomit. I have emotional flatulence. What the fuck is wrong with me?

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bushka:
hey honeypot! apparently last monday was officially 'blue monday' in the uk, do you have it there too? they worked it out that its that crap time after chrissy, where all the new years resolutions have been broken, the credit card bills have now come in, and pay day isnt till later in the month. i remember they announced it last year too, and i felt it then, but surprisingly, (and happily), i felt nothing of the sort this monday! i officially got through it unscathed.

i love you hon, take it easy on yourself my sweet. b xx kiss
Jan 19, 2009
bushka:
ps. i ,love love love your profile pic when its the tiny version, it looks like millions of glittering sparkles. i like it big also, but not as much...
Jan 19, 2009

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