pandara

I'm having quite a day.

I had the dreaded conversation.
I cried my freakin eyes out.

Apparently I have a problem with boundaries.
HOLY SHIT----> this is the story of my life.

I have had sex with people I shouldn't have. I have said things I shouldn't have. I have gossiped. OK in life I have done these things. Now I am crossing the line by helping people. OK so really for GOD SAKES I can't even be a good doer without stepping on someones toes. "fuck fuck shit piss damn it shit fuck piss"

OK so I still have a job. We are committed to weekly meetings and better communication. I hope this flies.

You see--->shocker<---- the mama's like me. I don't want to feel competitive over who they like more. I want them to be happy and get good care. Sometimes this is better done when everyone is on board. But... I need to work harder on being the nameless, voiceless face. I am so NOT good at that. She says I am overpowering her. She says I make me look good and her look bad. This was never my intention. I want us both to look and be good. I guess sometime actions speak louder than words. Damn it that felt like such a fucked up thing to say. Why am I always the one crying. I think my skin is to thin or something.

So how many more nights will I be sleepless??

I actually think that things are better. It was a good talk. I just have more to work out within myself. I guess.

Do any of you know what it means to be an Empath?
I found this intersting little online program.
The Book of Storms
I come from a long line of psychic women.
It is making me crazy.
This is often the source of my toe stepping.
I get things before other people.
This is not anything to do with the hippie thing.
This is just one weird little piece of my reality.


Thanks for listening to these ramblings of a crazy women. Crazy I said!!!