OK... on we go.
I woke up from a little snooze last night to the best voice. A voice I hadn't heard in a long long time. I smiled. ahhhh.... I fucking love Lou Reed. I walked out of my room all groggy. I smiled my way down the hall. I swayed with his lovely voice. Did I already say.... I fucking love Lou Reed. He sits with me in so many memories of my youth. He sits in my history. He dances with me in dark smoky black light lit rooms of the 80's. I missed him while he was gone. We are reacquainting right now as we speak. His words still flow right off my lips. It seems as though he never even left. I feel all good and warm inside. I fucking love Lou Reed.
He tells me I'm agnostic.
I'm not.
Agnostic
Main Entry:
1agnostic
Pronunciation:
\ag-ˈns-tik, əg-\
Function:
noun
Etymology:
Greek agnōstos unknown, unknowable, from a- + gnōstos known, from gignōskein to know _ more at KNOW
Date:
1869
1: a person who holds the view that any ultimate reality (as God) is unknown and probably unknowable; broadly : one who is not committed to believing in either the existence or the nonexistence of God or a god2: a person unwilling to commit to an opinion about something <political agnostics>
He tells me I'm not a Christian
I am.
He tells me Christians would not accept my definition of Christianity.
He's right.
So how does one explain this... and what would this be called?
I am a person of faith. I believe there is a GOD. I don't think that GOD could possibly be male or female. I pray to GOD. I also believe that there are other spirits that can help you in many ways. I was raised Catholic. I am not Catholic now. I don't know if I want to believe in Heaven and/or Hell, I must, I am very afraid to go to hell. I pray. I have changed. I don't want to be as dark as I used to be. I want to do good. I am tired of the Hell on Earth that bad deeds have placed upon me. Some would say Karma. I just say, um yeah Karma. I am tired of this faith crisis. I am wondering why here, why now? I know when it was that moment they all stood over me praying, chanting, speaking in tongues. It was that moment that my mind was spinning. I was thinking "what am I doing, why am I here?" I was scared. I still feel scared of all those magical mysterious things that are real and totally un-fuckin-real. I am the mistress of my universe. I have a key to the unknown and path to destiny a planned voyage to the future. I jump in, I jump out. I am nothing and everything in the blink of an everlasting spiritual forever. My roads are golden and the gates are pearly and who really gives a fuck about such stupid and petty things as gold and pearls. Don't get me wrong if I found a pearl in an Oyster I would thank the Heavens and sit in utter disbelief of the miraculous things that happen in the world.
OH speaking of the phone just rang A baby is coming soon.
I pray for a smooth, gentle birth with a very healthy and happy mamatoto.
Oh and guess what...
The stork doesn't really bring babies.
I woke up from a little snooze last night to the best voice. A voice I hadn't heard in a long long time. I smiled. ahhhh.... I fucking love Lou Reed. I walked out of my room all groggy. I smiled my way down the hall. I swayed with his lovely voice. Did I already say.... I fucking love Lou Reed. He sits with me in so many memories of my youth. He sits in my history. He dances with me in dark smoky black light lit rooms of the 80's. I missed him while he was gone. We are reacquainting right now as we speak. His words still flow right off my lips. It seems as though he never even left. I feel all good and warm inside. I fucking love Lou Reed.
He tells me I'm agnostic.
I'm not.
Agnostic
Main Entry:
1agnostic
Pronunciation:
\ag-ˈns-tik, əg-\
Function:
noun
Etymology:
Greek agnōstos unknown, unknowable, from a- + gnōstos known, from gignōskein to know _ more at KNOW
Date:
1869
1: a person who holds the view that any ultimate reality (as God) is unknown and probably unknowable; broadly : one who is not committed to believing in either the existence or the nonexistence of God or a god2: a person unwilling to commit to an opinion about something <political agnostics>
He tells me I'm not a Christian
I am.
He tells me Christians would not accept my definition of Christianity.
He's right.
So how does one explain this... and what would this be called?
I am a person of faith. I believe there is a GOD. I don't think that GOD could possibly be male or female. I pray to GOD. I also believe that there are other spirits that can help you in many ways. I was raised Catholic. I am not Catholic now. I don't know if I want to believe in Heaven and/or Hell, I must, I am very afraid to go to hell. I pray. I have changed. I don't want to be as dark as I used to be. I want to do good. I am tired of the Hell on Earth that bad deeds have placed upon me. Some would say Karma. I just say, um yeah Karma. I am tired of this faith crisis. I am wondering why here, why now? I know when it was that moment they all stood over me praying, chanting, speaking in tongues. It was that moment that my mind was spinning. I was thinking "what am I doing, why am I here?" I was scared. I still feel scared of all those magical mysterious things that are real and totally un-fuckin-real. I am the mistress of my universe. I have a key to the unknown and path to destiny a planned voyage to the future. I jump in, I jump out. I am nothing and everything in the blink of an everlasting spiritual forever. My roads are golden and the gates are pearly and who really gives a fuck about such stupid and petty things as gold and pearls. Don't get me wrong if I found a pearl in an Oyster I would thank the Heavens and sit in utter disbelief of the miraculous things that happen in the world.
OH speaking of the phone just rang A baby is coming soon.
I pray for a smooth, gentle birth with a very healthy and happy mamatoto.
Oh and guess what...
The stork doesn't really bring babies.
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