pandamonium

i think all of you know how much i enjoy posting funny journal entries.

this one is a black hole of comedy.

those of you with weak stomachs should not continue.

last week, i found out my 86 year-old grandmother has cancer in her bladder ... a tumor the size of a baseball. Since she suffers from other health problems, the physicians suggested that she not go through with surgery, that she wouldn't survive it.

so she, my grandfather, and my dad (step-father, but he raised me) have discussed the issue, and she's not going to have surgery.

meaning ... she has an extremely limited time to live.

i do love her, even though she was never the 'fun' grandmother, who would take us to movies, play games with us, etc.

this will be the first time in my life, however, that someone "close" to me is dealing with dying and will die soon.

more than my personal emotions, i'm carrying the emotions of my family.

i apologize for unloading upon ya'll. i'm sure all of you know it's something i rarely do.

this time, however, i had to get this out. i can't hold it all in.