pandakrs

for the last couple of days i can't seem to get certain images out of my head. now i don't understand why i'm seeing these images again since i'm in a much better mental state as opposed to when these images where burned into my memory. lets just say these images had the emotional weight of a wrecking ball on my soul. i figured if i wrote a blog about it it'd help me get over this sudden relaspe into a horrible time in my life.

now honestly i pose a question to people out there who cheat on their supposed monogamous partners whether its boyfriend/girlfriend or husband/wife. in my experience, it has got to be easier to be the person cheating than the one being cheated on. correct or not? that's my question...now i've only experienced the being cheated on part of this connundrum. and let me just say a person never really forgets. or maybe i'm waiting to forget with some else more worthwhile. its like the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind or something. can a person who cheats go through turmoil they themselves can't or won't get over. back to my state of mind of this. i think its easier for the cheater to move on with their life w/o looking back and therefore never get punished for hurting the cheatee. there's no reparations for the cheatee outside of betting on mother karma and or taking measures into their own hands and makin the cheaters life a living hell.....which takes is way more buck for the bang. so now my question is when does the cheatee know they are truly mentally over a traumatic experience. do they have to wait until some wonderful person comes along and complete redeems the cheater. that's just digging a hole for the next person that comes along. the biggest thing i learned from all this is that others are gonna do wat they are gonna do regardless of wat they tell you. and you can't be affected by their decisions or at least limit the affect it has on you. i honestly hate knowing that somewhere out there cheaters are prospering