panda_pewp

I've learned a lot throughout life. One thing for sure that I've learned is that holding grudges destroys you. Letting go and forgiving feels good. Like a giant weights been lifted. I've come to terms that the woman that gave birth to me will never be my mother. But good things came from that, I learned how to be a better mother. But that's just one example. Another one is the divorce with my ex husband...........if you're my friend you know what happened there, no need to go into details. Forgiveness for him is harder, but it's happening.

Next month I am going to a Rheumatologist to get tested for fibromyalgia. I've been in a ton of pain lately that is not connected to IC.

I also recently found out I have a pretty shitty bladder disease called interstitial cystitis which has been EXTREMELY hard to live with. Lots of late night ER trips and hospitalizations. In May I am having surgery. A hydro bladder distention, they're also going to look for open wounds (hunners ulcers) and biopsy to check for the big C word. I'm scared.