panda_pewp

Are you shitting me? Because sometimes when people try to insult me through my mother or something like that I lie to them, telling my mom's dead about 2 months ago, so they will appologise after which I laugh out loud of coarse...

Anyway do get better soon!

Still at my apt. I'm doing ok. I have good days and bad days. I found out he was cheating on me that whole time. After I got back from treatment I went to get the key and found out he was sleeping with her. So I busted him in the face and slammed her head against the door. She was lucky my mom and lil sis were there because I would have thrown her ass over the balcony, but I threw her flower pot instead. Heheh She was all "I'm going to hit her back" as he was holding her back and I said "yeah bitch that's what I want you to do... come try and hit me." That day I tossed all his shit out side and said if he doesnt come get it I will let who ever wants it take it. I've heard from him off and on since but... fuck him... They better hope that I don't run into either of them and if I do they best stay out of arms reach. If they get close enough to be hit, they better expect me to hit them. If I ever catch that bitch alone in a dark alley she better be an all star track runner because I will case her down and kick her face in. Aside from that......Alot of booze helps...... I was going to AA for a while, but..... that was lame, really, really, really lame. So, I'm drinking more and more... getting in trouble and busting my shit up. I broke my thumb a few weekes ago fighting inaminate objects.... got stiches in my finger a week ago after throwing some glass around my apt and cutting it really bad. I found my new love..... canned air... makes me happy.
I've lost alot of weight... none of my clothes fit me.... I am pulling old clothes from high school out of boxes just to have something to wear. It's good and bad.... but you have to take the good with the bad I suppose and if you never experienced bad you wouldnt know or appreciate the good things you do have.... or some bullshit like that.
ANYWAY. How are you and BIG A.? I miss you guys alot. Too bad you didnt stick around a bit longer..... I really need the two of you to cheer me up like the old days. I miss Dave and my sis madly.... I really feel alone here.......
Email me.... and so on.