My question for you lovely folks is this, should I scrap modeling for PSW and the other shit I've been doing or keep at it? BE CAREFUL THOUGH WHEN ANSWERING! I trust most of you implicitely. Please do not spare my feelings. If I'm done, I'm done and I'm cool with that. I'd much rather be cute model alumni that people have fond memories of than that one girl who didn't know when to quit and played herself out to a sad joke. The truth is you won't hurt my feelings, I will be so very appreciative, I promise.
I think I might be having a midlife crisis. Is 36 too young for that? i find myself second-guessing the choices I make about things like what to wear & how to wear my hair and makeup & such all of a sudden, well since my birthday anyway. I mean, it's as if there's a little voice in the back of my head saying "aren't you a little old to be trying to pull that off?" The voice that constantly says "aren't you a bit fat to be trying to pull that off" has been there since gradeschool,so it's more like a grumpy old friend. But this new voice is driving me crazy. I went to Hell City today and while I would normally be looking at all the hot young gorgeous women there and wondering how I could get in their panties (a fun pastime) instead I was, I think, jealous, or just thinking Christ, if that's what fashion is turning to, I'm totally fucked body-type wise and age-wise. It's the first time I can remember feeling SO self-conscious around people who I used to feel unique around. It's so strange and I don't like it, not one little bit.
I don't think I'm dealing with the age thing well at all.
I know these issues are tiny next to the great problems of our world, but hey I guess I can be shallow.I just would really like the opinions of my friends about it. So what say? Pammy the classic and leave it alone till I embarass myself, or Pammy the still going strong flinging off my clothes at the first site of camera flash?
ALSO
see Hell City '08 pic file for some awesomesauce and cuteness!
I think I might be having a midlife crisis. Is 36 too young for that? i find myself second-guessing the choices I make about things like what to wear & how to wear my hair and makeup & such all of a sudden, well since my birthday anyway. I mean, it's as if there's a little voice in the back of my head saying "aren't you a little old to be trying to pull that off?" The voice that constantly says "aren't you a bit fat to be trying to pull that off" has been there since gradeschool,so it's more like a grumpy old friend. But this new voice is driving me crazy. I went to Hell City today and while I would normally be looking at all the hot young gorgeous women there and wondering how I could get in their panties (a fun pastime) instead I was, I think, jealous, or just thinking Christ, if that's what fashion is turning to, I'm totally fucked body-type wise and age-wise. It's the first time I can remember feeling SO self-conscious around people who I used to feel unique around. It's so strange and I don't like it, not one little bit.
I don't think I'm dealing with the age thing well at all.
I know these issues are tiny next to the great problems of our world, but hey I guess I can be shallow.I just would really like the opinions of my friends about it. So what say? Pammy the classic and leave it alone till I embarass myself, or Pammy the still going strong flinging off my clothes at the first site of camera flash?
ALSO
see Hell City '08 pic file for some awesomesauce and cuteness!
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Also, pose nude if you wanna pose nude!
and honestly, i think you'd miss it too much to just totally give up posting pics for PSW. i'd miss ya too in fact! its something you do for fun, keep at it.
go look at my tattoo pics in my journal!