pammy

And now for a much shorter and easier to read bloggyblog:

I was so disappointed today! I got a job offer that was awesome, but I don't think I'll be able to take it. Damn.
It was from someone I have known casually for awhile who started up a business, but it's in Cincinnati. If gas prices weren't so bad, I'd totally make the commute for this job. He opened a shop for BDSM equipment and needs a chick to take care of internet stuff, model the gear, go to conventions and classes all over the COUNTRY, etc. Crap, I'm so upset about it. Why couldn't he do this two years ago before I had so many responsibilities at home?it would be such a perfect job for me, also to make my BDSM interests legit in the real world. It would be nearly impossible to do it as a full-time job for me now. I need to take care of my Tommy and Jesse and my son and the house and work my regular job plus start a tattooing apprenticeship one fucking day. (That's another thing that has me on edge, the artist that is to apprentice me has had some health problems and apprenticeship is being put off it seems indefinitely, meanwhile if I try to work with another artist, the original one will feel like I'm being disloyal, etc, what a mess! I just want to be a friggin' tattoo artists, folks, it ain't rocket surgery). Anyway, I'm totally bummed about missing out on the perfect job. boohoo.