pammy

I think I may be developing a problem. For years my best friend and until recently roommate have shared a checking account because, honestly, I SUCK with money. At least I did, I'm much better now. i've opened up my very own brand spanking new account and I feel all grown up and junk but the problem is this: I can't stop checking on it online. I check it at least six times a day. I know what money i've spent and how much is in the account etc, I just can't help doing it. It's the weirdest addiction yet.

I hope everyone is doing well.

I regret that I didn't make the SG Havana night in CBus last Thursday. I wish I could have gone, but my bf Tommy who has been in several accidents in his life and lives with chronic pain because of it was really not up for thetrip and I chose to stay with him.I know there will be more Havana nights (wasn't that the Dirty Dancing sequel?) and I am looking forward to them. I wish Tommy didn't hurt so bad, sometimes I just want to try to take his pain from him. I watch him sleep and you can tell he even hurts in his sleep. He walks with a cane and i just want to pick him up and carry him if i could. I knew about his back and his pain when I got into this thing, but please keep me in your thoughts that I can be strong enough for the both of us. We are so genuinely happy together and I want to be with him always, but I know there will come a time that the pain puts him in a wheelchair and worse and I need to prepare myself for that time.