I'm having the hardest time ever finding a photographer. With school, my weight goals, and just personal things going in in my life I feel like it's just creating a wall to do what I really want in life. I want an education, especially to go to school for Vet tech because I love animals. My weight and appearance goals ; I've always been known as the fat girl. The ugly one. The one that no boys in my school wanted. I went through a lot in my life. Drugs, very bad choices, ran with bad people, so that took a toll on me in a bad way because I would lose a lot of weight, then gain it back, vice versa. I've always wanted that attention from people , the kind of attention like, wow she's beautiful, or even the sexual remarks make me happy too only because I've just ever heard it ( being completely honest) but the overly sexual remarks like oh baby let me bend you over just repulses me because I am not a toy. I am a human being with feelings. I just want to come to a point wih my body where I can look at my self and not be upset with what I see. I do embrace my curves, but there is room for improvements. I've slowly started to work out again. I want to go on a diet . It's just hard to do these things with out support. My boyfriend is pretty supportive but he is a guy lol. I want to become a suicide girl because I want to stand for confidence. I want to join the ladies that stand for art, beauty, and respect. I've always wanted to become apart of a community that empowers women. Tattoos, or not tattoos, chunky, skinny, black white, tall, short; there are ladies of all types. I really want to become close with as many of the community as possible! I want to become a suicide girl because it would help me achieve my goal for self acceptance and self love. Something I've wanted since I could remember. Thank you for reading if you did , it means a lot to me. And thank you for your support!
