palebloom

okay, like... i really don't know. i'm watching the sound of music, and attempting to continue existence.

i got dumped.

it was gay.

as if things needed to get worse, right?

he called me ugly and told me i needed to gain weight. he told me i'd never have anyone good in my life and that i was a bad person. he told me i was crazy and that i'd never find anyone else who could stand to be with me.

i started to vomit as he was yelling at me, and he kept saying "see, you're weak, you can't fight me." he told me i couldn't even hold my food down and that i was pathetic. so...

i hit him. i slapped him, and it felt good. i grabbed his balls. yes, i did. i bit and scratched. i drew blood. i would have killed him if i could have, and i would've spit in his face if i'd thought of it, but i didn't.

i hate drama. i hate relationships. i hate dying. i hate that a lot of shit always happens at once. fuck this.

HOW DO YOU SOLVE A PROBLEM LIKE MARIIIIIIIIAAAAAAAAAAAA???