so ive been kinda wierd lately....like recently ive been very indifferent to my friends and im not upset about it...like i really dont care if i hang out with them or not, and i often find myself making excuses for not hanging out with them...i miss having friends that i really wanna hang out with, and that i just really enjoy being around...my life has changed so much in the past year or so, nothing is the same as it was....and its not necessarily bad, just not as i thought....dont get me wrong i love living with alienatedpoet31 but thats about all i like. its not that im depressed or soooo unhappy, just indifferent. and sometimes i think thats almost worse than being so unhappy, b/c at least then i would know why i was unhappy, but im just meh. like i miss having friends i want to run and call when something good happens, is it wierd that i never want to really open up to them? i dont know...i just need a change, a change in what i do on the weekends...a change in who its with....my only thing i need to have is my mister....and i kinda would like to have friends i count on...and its so crazy that im complaining that i dont like my friends, b/c its not like they did anything to me, or we got in a fight....i just dont find myself wanting to get any closer to them than i am....ugh i dunno time for bed i guess....
take care
-paizley-