paisita

So I just found out that my ex bf is back in gaol after only 7 months out after a long 6 years inside......I feel absolutely sick

I may not want to be with him (as his gf) anymore but he is one of my bestest friends and I love him beyond words. There is nothing I would not do for him......I feel like my heart is breaking, this actually hurts a million times worse than we we broke up. I feel so awful for his family, new gf and him....But it was always on the cards with his kind of lifestyle I dont even know how to put into words how hollow I feel knowing that he wont be around to hang out with for at least another couple of years..........

To make things even worse (and on a some what lighter note), he is the one who is doing my back tatt and I dont want anyone one else to touch it but him, so I guess that its going to stay unfinished for a while yet....I am just going to have to get started on the next one in the meantime....

Well bye for now...

Mwah