painunbound

"Hell is other people" ~ Jean-Paul Sartre

"They cry in the dark, so you can't see their tears
They hide in the light, so you can't see their fears
Forgive and forget, all the while
Love and pain become one and the same
In the eyes of a wounded child
Because Hell
Hell Is For Children" ~ Pat Benatar

So here I am again to bitch about the things that get stuck in my head... Why. Why? Why! Why do I do this? What is it about lately? Why am I getting all so introverted? I don't know, but anyway why don't I get right to it... I'm obsessed with being alone. I don't like being alone, but more and more I feel alone in life. People slip away from me, and other people are just shadows of who they use to be. Am I predisposed? Is this my lot in life. I just get to walk around and be alone? It sucks! I mean don't get me wrong I like my quiet time as much as the next person, but with personal relationships, things are lacking. Is it too much to want to be understood, to enjoy some conversation. To talk about life and experience? Maybe I want to much. Maybe I'm missing what I got? Maybe still I'm getting a raw deal. I'm tired of feeling on the outside.

"And as I walked on
Through troubled times
My spirit gets so downhearted sometimes
So where are the strong
And who are the trusted?
And where is the harmony?
Sweet harmony.

'Cause each time I feel it slippin' away, just makes me wanna cry.
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding?" ~ Elvis Costello