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My day is going ok i guess i did feel good yesterday i was so depressed. I was crying all morning... Yes I cry SO WHAT! there shouldn't be a problem for a guy to cry. I a really emotional person shit. Is that so wrong? I hope not What do youpeople think?
I dont deal with my emotion well, i never have. I been trying for the past two years. I've been to a shrick and all that bull and other shit. Everthing seem fine entill two months ago. maybe i need meds again? ......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................some time it feels like it dosent really matter....................it feels like im standing still and everything is moving at hundreds of miles and nothing seems to make sence...............i try not to think about it but it hunts me in my sleep and through the day....why is always the question, for what is the reason, to what perpose?..........