Thursday. Never could get the hang of Thursdays. This particular Thursday wasn't too bad. I had a pretty decent day to be perfectly honest. I got to spend the day with my friend Keli which was nice because we don't get to hang out that often, and she was generous enough to go out with me and buy me some groceries which was entirely too...
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So, it's official now. I am back at the Futureshop. Retail at Christmas, I must be out of my bloody mind. Oh well, money is money. Granted I'm now going to be earning considerably less than I had been previously, but that can't be helped.
The real problem comes from the fact that my first paycheck is only going to have about 8 hours on...
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The real problem comes from the fact that my first paycheck is only going to have about 8 hours on...
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Well kids, it looks like this ape descendant is gonna be heading back to Futureshop for the time being. It's this pesky money thing. My mortgage demands to be paid, as do the rest of my bills. Such being the case I can no longer wait to find a decent paying job. That doesn't mean I'm going to stop looking of course, it just means...
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Still unemployed. Now also entirely broke. Groceries are running low. I'd say things can't get any worse, but every time I've said that for the past several months, they have, and with my parents out of the Country I dare not tempt fate, who knows what could happen. I have a decent amount of alcohol in my fridge, I'm going to go drink all of...
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rin:
unemployed? i thought victoria had lots of jobs. i mean, i hope it does! i'm moving there in the summer!
So, I've fallen madly in love. Her name is Zooey Deschanel and she is a movie star. Yeah, I'm a geek.
Big Halloween party tomorrow. Should be a good time. Solaris has chickened out, likely because she fears my proficiency with Guitar Hero. That's okay though, I do not blame her. I will just never let her forget it :p
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Big Halloween party tomorrow. Should be a good time. Solaris has chickened out, likely because she fears my proficiency with Guitar Hero. That's okay though, I do not blame her. I will just never let her forget it :p
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So, I'm almost recovered now. And I've been called in for a second interview with a place that pays better than my previous job. So, fingers crossed on that. Also, I have now completed my costume, and it is so sexy I'm almost afraid to wear it, lest I find myself torn apart by ravenous women, like in an axe bodyspray ad. I'll post some...
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solaris:
i find stuff always happens like this.... especially seeing how it's such an employees market these days it seems. last job i had totally sucked and i quit it so irresponsibly with no notice and i felt terrible and stressed... then after two weeks i found a job a million, billion times better. i wanted a longer vacation!
solaris:
i am completely prepared. especially since i am at the disadvantage of not being able to brush up as cathy has my ps2... i have not played since my last humiliation and at that point i was already rusty. i know, i am always full of excuses.
Well, the cosmic joke that is my life continues. Today I got fired. Seems I've missed too much work. None of it within my control of course, but that doesn't matter.
You know, it's really hard to stay optimistic when life continually bludgeons me when I'm already down. Hopefully I will find new employment quickly, my mortgage has this thing about being paid monthly. Picky...
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You know, it's really hard to stay optimistic when life continually bludgeons me when I'm already down. Hopefully I will find new employment quickly, my mortgage has this thing about being paid monthly. Picky...
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zombette:
listen... i was going through the same sort of deal last month... i was at the point where i would wake up in the morning to my alarm clock beeping and beeping and the first thought wasnt 'wow whats gonna go wrong today?' it literally got to the point where the first waking thought was 'Suicide! Of course! Why didn't i think of that before?'
because EVERY DAY something HORRIBLE would happen. EVERY. DAY. i am speaking of a friend of ten years spitting spite and venom at me and then cutting me out of her life, just after she had her baby; Delilah, whom i was really looking forward to meeting and spending time with and loving. i was going to be Auntie Jet (it would probably be a little difficult for her to pronounce my real name for a good five more years yet) and i spent $200 that i really could not afford on gifts for her AND mom (ex-best friend) at her baby shower... and out of NOWHERE she cut me out of her life.
i am talking about a car accident that happened three weeks ago. my mother was driving and had it happened a split second sooner, i certainly would not be here to write this. the other driver hit my side. hard. i scalded myself with the coffee i was stupidly holding.
i am talking about another friend i THOUGHT was my friend sticking me with a knife right through the heart. not literally; just the words he said and the way he said them.
my soon to be exhusband who i once considered above all others finding me on Facebook (which you should join) and sinking his claws back in; first saying nice things, trying to call me, then when i tried to do the classy thing and tell him to take care of himself; he sent me the meanest words he could come up with. and he is a CHAMP at mean words.
i havent been fired from a job; but i have been LOOKING for a job. ANY job. and i cant find one. so i have no money.
i have the bank on my ass writing me more and more letters that are becoming more and more threatening...
i am talking about my mom yesterday coming home from breakfast and staggering and dropping things and not being able to see out of her right eye. she doesnt take drugs. she doesnt drink. but she literally could not walk. there was no pain. she was just completely disoriented and confused.
you know most of this. its just like i feel (as i am sure you do) that theres a big neon sign over my head right now flashing OVERLOAD OVERLOAD OVERLOAD
but...
shit where was i going with this? THE POINT OF THIS COMMENT IS NOT TO BRING YOU DOWN, I SWEAR TO GOD.
you are an exceptional person. and sometimes (or ALL the damn times in my case) we do not know why the things that happen to us are allowed to happen. we try to live our lives as relatively good, decent, compassionate human beings and the world is not kind. you just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep your head up. because the world does NOT hate you. it doesnt love you either. the world is indifferent.
you have to make your own choices; the best choices you can, and hope for the expected best outcome.
LIFE IS NOT A SERIES OF DISAPPOINTMENT AFTER DISAPPOINTMENT. life is a series of choices and good things and bad things and good people and bad people.
i hope hope hope and i will even say a prayer that you find a new job soon (it occurs to me that getting fired from this job may lead to something much better... only we cant see that from here because the future is all smoke and mirrors)...
just... just try to look at your life in an unbiased way... try to notice what you have that you can be grateful for.
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
-Anonymous
that may sound naive. it may sound trite. but it struck a chord with me and i hope it strikes the same chord with you.
i am thinking of you.
xxx
-AM
because EVERY DAY something HORRIBLE would happen. EVERY. DAY. i am speaking of a friend of ten years spitting spite and venom at me and then cutting me out of her life, just after she had her baby; Delilah, whom i was really looking forward to meeting and spending time with and loving. i was going to be Auntie Jet (it would probably be a little difficult for her to pronounce my real name for a good five more years yet) and i spent $200 that i really could not afford on gifts for her AND mom (ex-best friend) at her baby shower... and out of NOWHERE she cut me out of her life.
i am talking about a car accident that happened three weeks ago. my mother was driving and had it happened a split second sooner, i certainly would not be here to write this. the other driver hit my side. hard. i scalded myself with the coffee i was stupidly holding.
i am talking about another friend i THOUGHT was my friend sticking me with a knife right through the heart. not literally; just the words he said and the way he said them.
my soon to be exhusband who i once considered above all others finding me on Facebook (which you should join) and sinking his claws back in; first saying nice things, trying to call me, then when i tried to do the classy thing and tell him to take care of himself; he sent me the meanest words he could come up with. and he is a CHAMP at mean words.
i havent been fired from a job; but i have been LOOKING for a job. ANY job. and i cant find one. so i have no money.
i have the bank on my ass writing me more and more letters that are becoming more and more threatening...
i am talking about my mom yesterday coming home from breakfast and staggering and dropping things and not being able to see out of her right eye. she doesnt take drugs. she doesnt drink. but she literally could not walk. there was no pain. she was just completely disoriented and confused.
you know most of this. its just like i feel (as i am sure you do) that theres a big neon sign over my head right now flashing OVERLOAD OVERLOAD OVERLOAD
but...
shit where was i going with this? THE POINT OF THIS COMMENT IS NOT TO BRING YOU DOWN, I SWEAR TO GOD.
you are an exceptional person. and sometimes (or ALL the damn times in my case) we do not know why the things that happen to us are allowed to happen. we try to live our lives as relatively good, decent, compassionate human beings and the world is not kind. you just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep your head up. because the world does NOT hate you. it doesnt love you either. the world is indifferent.
you have to make your own choices; the best choices you can, and hope for the expected best outcome.
LIFE IS NOT A SERIES OF DISAPPOINTMENT AFTER DISAPPOINTMENT. life is a series of choices and good things and bad things and good people and bad people.
i hope hope hope and i will even say a prayer that you find a new job soon (it occurs to me that getting fired from this job may lead to something much better... only we cant see that from here because the future is all smoke and mirrors)...
just... just try to look at your life in an unbiased way... try to notice what you have that you can be grateful for.
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
-Anonymous
that may sound naive. it may sound trite. but it struck a chord with me and i hope it strikes the same chord with you.
i am thinking of you.
xxx
-AM
Home from the hospital, jiggity jig. Yeah, you know who doesn't like hospitals? This guy. You know who doesn't like IV's? Also this guy.
I've been pretty retardedly sick for the past few days. Last night my fever hit 105, so I decided it was probbly time to seek medical attention. Seems I was really dehydrated amongst other things, which surprises me considering how much...
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I've been pretty retardedly sick for the past few days. Last night my fever hit 105, so I decided it was probbly time to seek medical attention. Seems I was really dehydrated amongst other things, which surprises me considering how much...
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bettina:
hahaha, I have a hard time convincing anyone that touring this much DOES actually burn me out. But I also get to do lots of fun stuff. I'll have lots of time to sit still when my hips give out...
Well, it all appears to be over now. Nothing left for it but to move on and try to make the most of whats left of me. That being said, hows about I stop being so depressing here and get back to what I do best, being an amusing jackass. Deal? Deal.
Friends, I call upon you to stand with me against a great evil....
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Friends, I call upon you to stand with me against a great evil....
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Just received Shauna's engagement ring back in the mail. Also the locket I got her for Valentine's day.
I've felt better.
I've felt better.
missmalice_:
Hey I just wanted to see how you were dealing with everything?
Are you feeling any better?
Are you feeling any better?
I think I can do it now. I think I can lay down the whole painful story. Maybe then I can be done with it.
I've only had 3 relationships in my life. The first was just over 7 years long with a girl named Mandy, and ended when she cheated on me and dumped me. After 7 years, you can imagine how much of...
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I've only had 3 relationships in my life. The first was just over 7 years long with a girl named Mandy, and ended when she cheated on me and dumped me. After 7 years, you can imagine how much of...
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hellocupcake:
*hug* in my 21 years i have learned nothing about relationships, other than how to fall too hard and too fast and to get hurt.
and i'm REALLY good at that.
and i'm REALLY good at that.
pagz:
Everyone has a talent they say 
Who does this kind of shit? Honestly.
So, I found out last night that my ex didn't leave me to "find herself" like she had told me, but had in fact left me for some new guy she's just met. Some white trash nightmare, former meth adict, ugly as fuck, with nasty greasy hair, a face that looks like it's been hit with a shovel,...
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So, I found out last night that my ex didn't leave me to "find herself" like she had told me, but had in fact left me for some new guy she's just met. Some white trash nightmare, former meth adict, ugly as fuck, with nasty greasy hair, a face that looks like it's been hit with a shovel,...
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siva7:
well, he sounds like quite a lovely guy hahaha. At least you dont have to be jealous of a loser like that. It sounds like your ex is a loser herself to do all of this to you. You deserve someone sensitive and loving like yourself. I'm sorry all of this is happening to you...but remember, everything does happen for a reason and im sure you will come out on top. I responded to your last post on the breakup club board if you wanna take a look. I'm always here to support you.
twinkie:
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